so glad

For the last moment, i had enough. I am so done with everything here. Therefore, i am going to care less about the misery, torments, guilt, sadness and unhappiness. Perhaps, in my last straw, i have done enough in lending people a hand whenever they have problem or issues. Not wishing people would be appreciative but the least you could do is a " thank" is more than enough. Whenever i have problem, i don't think people would eventually lend a hand or a listen ear. Ultimately, it seem that all my worries and problems are bury inside head. Apparently, i appear to be not much of any problems because partly you all, may think that i am a strong-willed person. Yes, i am with firm thinking but somehow, you people may not understand even the strong and tough person will fall when meet into a setback. Imaginely, no one is there for you and you have to resolve it all by yourself. I tried it because im experimenting all these in the past, no one is really there for you when you desperately need a lending hand. They either escape or avoid you. So i learn to be strong and wiser, and deal with different kind of circumstances. I won't allow anyone to have a chance to see me for, see my weakling side. Thank to you i must say, this past two years i learn how to be headstrong in every decision i make. Although i do not hate you anymore, but there is still a little hatred inside me for the way we treated each other. I've seen through people in my entire life, that is why i never believe anyone, not even my closest friends, i chose to believe in myself, believe in what i see and hear. Call me stubborn for whatever you want to describe, i am willing to bear all those criticism. Seriously, i don't give a fuck about how people think of me, my personality or anything because i behave just the way i am. You do not have any right to teach me any moral lesson. Ever once a friend told me " stand strong, you never fall." Until now, this quote becoming part of my essential life and i am reminding myself everyday, even today. This motivates me not to fall and successfully, i am what i am today. I am glad.