officially sick and tired

I admit,i care about how people think of me.
Somehow, i feel that everyone has a judgement day.
Why, out of suddenly, i feel that everyone outshine me in someway, in an unique way.
All of sudden, all the pressure are hanging by the moment, leaving me acting solemnly.
I feel that i'm not stronger anymore, im falling, falling into a deeper depth, leaving me alone.
I thought we have the stimulate chemistry, but why do you, everyone leave a sudden goodbye note.
Am i not good enough? i probe this question all over and over again.
Why everyone have to do all these to me, what exactly have i done wrong? this is so injustice..
Apparently, now i'm officially sick of how people look at me, think of me, gossip about me.
Because if you think you can't capture well the limelight, i steal it and so be it.