FML

I just got back from the fucking work place and i fucking fucking hate it. Today doesn't seem to my day i call it pride. Fml..fml..fml indeed.

I was pathetically tired and only had one meal because i can't seem to crave for anything today.

I felt so motherfucking pissed which i do not wish to post it here because i am not someone who like to share my inner deep thoughts. Precisely, this issue got to be murder asap.

Didn't you guys realised chinese new year and valentine day actually crash on the same day,which means they got to celebrate both important festive season plus from their love ones as well while i am gonna be alone this year. Fortunately, i got to spend with my family and love ones.

I feel that i maybe leaving anytime soon, and i am not hoping for anything. Thanks for being there with me all these while and i appreciated it alot with your mentor and guidances. But, i have to move on for a better path carve out for me.

Men usually take sex as a sports,visualise a woman like a sexpot and take them for granted. They do not value woman chasity and almost regard them as a booty call.

When a dishonourable man treat you as a rebound or want nothing more than you,but just a booty call. You have to learn how to jeopardise this hazard in order to let yourself getting less hurt. A guy would never hurt you if they would treat you properly,with respect and most importantly, a value in their life.

When a guy say they need time to reconsider about their feelings with you. Forget about it, they are just making a plain excuse in avoiding this issue and also, preying for better targets out there, and you are unlikely to be one of them. When they call you out of the blue, without any notice, they just want a sleepovers with you,cuddles,sex with you and nothing more than that. So, please do not assume they are actually interested in you whereby they are just treating you as their passing time moments.

Nothing worth more than knowledge,because knowledge is power. A guy would actually be an honourable man if they actually see you as a human-being,treat you nicely,fancy you and shower you with more care,concern and love instead of treating you as a sex pot.

Basically, we are not kleenex in which we are use once and throw away. This theory is long existence in our logic because guys treated everything like their favourite sports game whereby they do not see the consequences it cause hurt, and more hurt.

What a motherfucking night?! i'm still here with more rants and i just couldn't stop ranting during my free time. Shouldn't i be obsessing with those notes than blogging but i couldn't,i have too much to say,too much thoughts to share,more worrying issues to handle,etc.

Shouldn't i be quitting partying? I feel as if my era is over,and the younger generation begins. I felt as if my health is deterioting or on rather, i haven't been enjoying the partying as much as it happened in the past. I should have concentrate on doing something more fufilling and lead a healthier state of mind.

I have to start sending my resumes after i graduate but i am contemplating to take degree or continue to work? This is definitely a worst-part being an adult whereby decisions has to be make. There is an old saying," do what you deem right'' I guess i will just go with the flow seriously.

I don't want to make myself full of criticism but somehow,i couldn't stand china bitches. They seem really stuck up and has an abhorrent attitudes which i know most of our sg people couldn't stand.

rants,rants,rants,all i need is more rant

I've been thinking,thinking and thinking with the confessing mind in me. Life is never as easy as it is done unless you experience it yourself. It is a rollar-coaster rides for me,ups and down. Basically,no one knows how i feel,what am i thinking or supposing to do because i am someone who do not express myself much or truth to be told,i am a person who immense in deep thoughts and hide my emotional well.

I am always wearing a mask and i won't allow myself to bare my heart to others, or else,i feel as if i am so naked.
Also,i am a very vague and straightforward person whereby i do not give a fuck damn for who you are and i apologise for that because i can't change the fact for how i behave,the way i acted,the person i am.

Somehow,i realised not many of you people could accept the way like i accept for who you are. Still, i know i am a very fuck-up-to-the-core person. I tried in many ways to change but still, i couldn't do so.
I'm not trying to broadcast what kind of person i am but hopefully, you all could understand what kind of person i'm really am. I know i may have offended loads of people out there,for the people they care for me the most and i really appreciated it.

Too much rants tonight.

Last night,although wasn't a blast but we managed to get ourselves a period of soberness. Out partying with my bunches of homies as one of them were holding a celebration at powerhouse and we ordered two bottles of liquors and the rest were ladies night free drink. I sweared i was almost gone and bonkers at the same time. Indeed, i managed to grab hold of myself and cabbed back home alone. I was walking fucking aimlessly and puking on my way home on the cab. I slept through my night and was in a dire straits. The feeling of heavy hangovers was indeed a disaster,not to mention those pukes.

Today, went for shopping trips with my mom and auntie at takashimaya,didn't really purchased anything except for perfume,lip-gloss and one basic top which cost a total bomb of almost two hundred bucks on my account,what a splendid am i? It was too ridiculous right?

Ok,that's about it,will call it a day. Have a bangin' day homies and earthling.

I'm blogging in the middle of the night,at this unearthly hours because my bodyclock is so screwed,worn out and ripped apart.It can't be fix anytime soon unless i get a proper adjustment. In this insanely 3am,everyone is supposedly be sleeping yet i'm up bright and shine typing this entry. It seem like my life revolving about school,sleeping late,working and cutting some slack.

Today a fufilling day,because i managed to slash out a price of sixty for these three dresses and i am so satisfied. It's so DIRT CHEAP compared to other malls selling and i like it because it's demure and sophisticated compared to my usual rockabilty-chick style. Also, went for a hair-trimmed and managed to ask the hairdresser to shave off my back of my head because it is really unglam and ugly as it has a tail behind. It does look less appealing to me and definitely,messy.

I can't seem to understand what's all sibling fights is all about?Feuding here and there,won't it be exhausted enough to keep on bickering hence and forth. Although,i used to have sibling wars with each other. We also slashed tongue with each other, huge cat fights,throw bottles,whacking with tools and etc. But,i realised something, as we grow older or maybe me,such occurence is definitely lesser than i thought. Maybe, we haven't been speaking much to each other or less seen each other which is good. I know both of us have a very foul anger and it is hard to curb those anger management. Peace-talking is much more sensible than those street-dogs fight right?

Last but not least,i maybe hitting on club later at night with bunches of gfs as one of them is celebrating her birthday later and i may crash in a bit.

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