Someday, somehow i find myself not in my usual ways.
I have alot of traumatic dramas through ups and down which i realised i don't love myself as much as i used to be.
I tend to protect myself in one of those ironic situations. i've been through betrayals and fights when people just couldn't get the point that i'm the one who is suffering all those bruises and pain. In my innermost thought, i wish someone would pulled me back to where i belong, to the less grumble one.
I thought i was the chirpy and spontaneous, until today someone told me i was boring. Till then, i realised something has gone wrong in me. In this situation, i can only salvage it, not anyone else.
I becoming more realistic about the world, everything and including myself. I realised that after what i've done, i've been jilted and fooled.