Losing grips

Guilt tripping and countless words untold. This world is shallow,you can never entrust yourself to anyone,not anyone but yourself. Whatever things you do,you trust your feelings and not to anybody else. I realise i am such a motherfucking failure and a wasted youth. I spent all my entire life realising what a motherfuckable person am i. I can look very positive and sound optimistic all the time you people always see. But the fact is,i'm not. I have a very pessimistic ego and i don't look at things on a brighter sides. Maybe due to all the drama-rama going on throughout my growing years.

Also,it seem like i don't set myself a very good example,to everyone and the young kids. Needless to say, i am truely a bad ass.

How many times have i been hurt,like something stab through my heart and take everything away from me? All the betrayals,setbacks i have been through and all those major shits. No one know me better than i know myself more. That's why i never trust anyone,even my closest ones. Call me a cold species and i don't give a huge fag about it.

I love to think i am a person you could spend your laughter and a shoulder to cry on. But in such circumstances, somehow,it's unpredictable.

In a losing grips...