Thinking

I think when I'm really stressed, i tend to drink alot,and i know it's bad for health but though it constraint me from doing that. Still, i can't stop myself from doing that.
Now,i feeling super duper over-strain for the gazillion times which i find it so meaningless. I'm trying to behave properly,talk less sarcastic but it makes no sense. You are who you are, i realize one point. You don't change for the others,it is unfair to yourself.
As i age, i think alot and immense myself in deep-thinking.I want to be success as anyone else out there and always constantly remind myself to give myself three to four year and once i graduated, i will hold a stable income job,drive a car and earn my own state of living.
I don't wish to rely and depend men for a living hood,and that is not me. I won't do that,because it is useless as i thought.(There is no free-lunch in this world)
Perhaps,i think highly of myself or go beyond the expectation i want,because till now, i couldn't find the correct path i want, the right decision i make,maybe i have been contradicting with words and actions recently.
Few years down the road, i don't wish to see myself partying and wasting my life away. Right now, guys aren't my top priority.On rather, making money is the most priority right now.

Monday's blue.....
So many things congested in my mind, i am dying inside.
I'm putting a tough front to everyone everyday,an a mask every moment.

The real reason why people fall out,make up,fall out,make up again.
Because the world is selfish and cruel.
Is either you get it or mine.Usually,people takes things for granted and desire more.
Unless you have the capabilities in achieving all those, the world adores and accept you.
The lesson learn is well-paid off and credible.

"I'm often sarcastic,because i live sarcasm as part of my list."

If you don't call,don't ever call.
If you ever pick up the courage and dial the phone call,i call it brave.
If you met someone ever better than me,i wish you the best.
If you regard me as friend,i won't regard you as enemy.
If you think your reason is ignorant,why bother explaining?
If you ever think you are coward,you are always a timid coward.
Because life's with or without you,makes no difference and no sense.
I won't cry for you nor i will plead on you,that's never my style and exist in my dictionary.
Because i'm wearing the pants,you are not.You're sheepishly wearing a chiffon dress.

Something must be wrong with the photo upload at blogger.Weekend's a crazily madness, went out partying with a huge crowds at powerhouse station with bff's and saw many familiar faces.My body and toes aches aftermath,and i went home early because i think i age efficiently after the late-night partying.
Been coughing for a numerous days and my throat is fatally sore, i guess i am contaminated with the flu bugs. Also, been sneezing and feeling fatigue as well.Blame it on the weather,i felt like i'm baking in the oven under the humid temperature.Therefore,it is best for a sun-tanning session.

Anyway, i didn't really have the mood for anything,as seems my brain is freezing cold and numb.Bad news is,i have to work now and good news is,i got enough cash to travel in months times.
My mind's is so contaminated and empty and i don't know why.

Goodnight,earthlings