Today's a father day, so i went out and grabbed an early dinner with my parents and treated my dad a sumptuous meal, at least i thought so. After which, went to town to meet my bitches and co. Had a great bitching session though and i miss the delicious hot dog i bought at far-east plaza. Snapped a few lame shots as if we were modelling. But indeed, it was fun as it has been a long while since i met up with them.
Receive my sweetheart call and we have a short chat over the phone, i guess long-distant r/s is so hard to maintain.
Till then, i will just treat it as a game then. Because it is so dangerous, so dangerous and no hazard free, as if the fire burning.
Seriously, since young, i treat everything as a game. Whatever you tell me, and no matter how u brainwash me with your little cryptic talk, i find it obnoxious and i do not know why. I tend to be more protective to myself in the crab-shell and i seldom share my thoughts and feelings to people for those who know me. Yes, i do give advices to many people who met into problems in certain circumstances and situations, but when it come to mine, i just screwed it up tentatively.

I admit i am stronger than anything, but i hate to suffer from setback, this is a big blow i won't take and afraid to lose.
Therefore, i guess i haven't been tearing and weeping for many years. Even when my dad said the most nasty words to me, i feel so numb. I like to act tough in front of people, i don't wish to let people see the utmost weakling side in me.

This is bad, so bad,and bad......