Hi earthlings, it's pretty recklessly lifeless for me, having awake at 4pm and stooped around house afterwhich and ate the takeout mom bought for me. After that, back to my books. It's a boring routine and i feel stuffed, but it is good to stay at home for awhile rather than the constant late hangout. Bad and unhealthy lifestyle. I guess after my exam, will start to look for a job or maybe send resume after i'm done with the papers. Perhaps, earning an income and stop relying on parents will prove to them that i am no longer dependent, but an independent modern woman.

Anticipating for girlfriend birthday which is the coming tuesday, thinking and planning for a surprise or perhaps a dinner treat. It depends.
Ok, back to books, enjoy!

Not this time, i think my stomach growling with anger again. How to curb hunger pangs and i just don't want to grab myself a bite because i am lazy, plain lazy whereby i do not want to do anything right now.
Staying up this inauspicious hours watching the Korean tv drama boys over flowers. At first, i wasn't keen at all to watch the drama because i felt lame and dope. I meant the girls fall head over heels over those guys, it's a bit dramatic i thought but anyway,since i have nothing to do,so i attempted to watch and it turned out pretty good and addictive. I'd only managed to watch the behind parts of the show online because the drama ended at this particular episode on Tv earlier, on channel 8.
I need to go and renew my id because of some dumb reason which i don't wish to mention.
Anyway, i will stop ranting.
Have a nice weekends though.

Today's a fufiling day.Hit the town with mom because i need to stock up my make up necessities. Badly enough, i overspent the budget again. As, i bought the Bobbi brown blackliner which cost me $40 bucks which is much more expensive with the one i bought the last time, M.A.C. Too bad, there isn't a Gss period for cosmestics. My mom bought Dior products without any discounted price, but points credited to my membership card. I saw the David Off and Dior perfume and hesitating to buy either one of them. Actually, Kenzo women's femme perfume smell nice too. Either i will opt for kenzo or David off perfume, we will see how.
Anyway, Gss is a total craze for singapore shoppers, you can see alot of people in orchard because they can purchase their favourite brands in a special prices, especially the 1/2 price.
Afterwhich, we headed to lucky's plaza to grab dinner then home sweet home.

I don't know why am i feeling so restless and lerthagic even i slept for more than 8 hours, something must be wrong with my body system. I've been yawning non-stop, and it is really a pain in the ass. Luckily, today i managed to finish two chapters of my lecture notes before heading out. Now, i have to be back to my books.

Cheese, i desperately need a new haircut, a new dye.
Just been so sick of this look ever since a few months and i need a good suggestion.
I want something more affordable and stylish.
I want to look achieve the "it girl" look, just like those girls out there.
I want to cut even shorter, but i am afraid i look like one abnormal creep, you get what i mean.

I won't lose,i fear losing.
Strong determination, and bearable thinking.
I ought to get this right, ought to have its own motivation.
I tell myself i won't fall from this fight, i won't.
Because this is me

Constant fear and worried

Yesterday, was out with girlfriends for star buck and followed by the aftermath, which is the makansutra.
The food was so unbearable except the grilling chicken wings. Only for that it was an exemption, all of it look so sickly and oily.
I was so fucking pissed with my computer, giving me incessant of problems, either shut down automatically or programmes popping out unnecessarily which frustrates me alot. My brother took my laptop which i have Microsoft office installed into it and now, i can't opened up the dopest file which my friend had sent me through gmail which contained exam tips. Therefore, need to ask my friend to print it out and send me. Double job= Double trouble.

The exciting part was my brother came by crashing on my pad and we had a psp playing game session. Too bad, he knocked out within an hour and fall into deep sleep with his piglet snores, haha.
Anyway, i didn't really slept well since and only slept for 3 hours. Suffering from sleep deprivation is absolutely bad for health and dehydrated your body. My body doesn't seem to be performing systematically which spell awful.
Seriously, am worry for next week exam because so far, i only covered three chapters and there are more to go. Lastly, i'm heading back to my books.

Night earthlings and babies,peace out

It had sent a shockwaves sweeping across the world and tributes that the "King Of Pop" is dead.
M.J, is the most influential icon and figures in the renowned music industry and pop music history. Unfortunately, he had planned for a last comeback concert tour in London next month he had dubbed " The last curtain."

It had triggered an outpouring of grief and despair as shocked pop music superstars and the devoted fans.
Till then, i was devastated with this shocking piece of news. To this day and moment, i believe that his music is played in every corner of the world and the reason for the support was he is a divine of talent whereby he ruled the music charts and his dazzling audiences with his excellent dance moves like the backward "Moonwalk" in the 1980s.

He is definitely a "legend" which i believe inspires everyone. As he made a stage clan with a piping soprano and dazzling dance moves. He inspire everyone with professionalism, talent and grace. It is definitely a loss to lose a legend like him.

I believe the spirit of excellent music he brought us, and divinity of souls always live with him.
Therefore, with love and bravery. Let's sink into the god blessing and best wishes.

Long live the "King Of Pop"

Sometimes, i think those nasty balls out there are a pathetic motherchuckers who don't brace themselves when they trying to break things off with the pussies.
Why, is it so hard to clear the air when things can be done short and sweet.
What you guys were thinking when you have to make a big fuss out of nothing, i just couldn't get it.
Use your little asses and think, if not your brain.
I believe 9/10 are a complete losers who do not dare face the facts to tell the other party when they are just making merry along with friends.
I just don't get it, seriously. If you do not like the girls, you shouldn't be treating them as a substitutes when you could not pass over those hurdles or simply playing the field.
Please, we are not those soccer balls whereby we can be kicked around. This is too hard to bear and too little to sweat.
For goodness sake, for the Jesus Christ's law, don't ever use the sweet-honeyed words when you guys, tend to over-used it when things are not taken seriously. And, don't swear as it is either yes or never.
We are not competing in a psp games, so please don't do this.
Even gays have feelings, why don't you people? Even bimbos have hard feelings with you people.
Love to have a disappearing acts and act as if nothing happened, sorry, it is too late to even feel apologetic because you all seem to ruin the pussies and causing a great nightmare when you people, are busying partying, finding some bimbos, making love and some underhand businesses.

Nightmares, nightmares......
So hard to take the blows.

Yes, thank you for making me realise what a fool i am.
Making me a real sore loser.
Making me so miserable and sick.
These two years, i learn to deal with such a sick pest like you, i hit the bottom of the rock.
Nobody knows, you were making merry with your sanity.
Somehow, i can forgive u, somewhat, i have the courage to tell please fuck off.
Please, leave me alone.

Today's a father day, so i went out and grabbed an early dinner with my parents and treated my dad a sumptuous meal, at least i thought so. After which, went to town to meet my bitches and co. Had a great bitching session though and i miss the delicious hot dog i bought at far-east plaza. Snapped a few lame shots as if we were modelling. But indeed, it was fun as it has been a long while since i met up with them.
Receive my sweetheart call and we have a short chat over the phone, i guess long-distant r/s is so hard to maintain.
Till then, i will just treat it as a game then. Because it is so dangerous, so dangerous and no hazard free, as if the fire burning.
Seriously, since young, i treat everything as a game. Whatever you tell me, and no matter how u brainwash me with your little cryptic talk, i find it obnoxious and i do not know why. I tend to be more protective to myself in the crab-shell and i seldom share my thoughts and feelings to people for those who know me. Yes, i do give advices to many people who met into problems in certain circumstances and situations, but when it come to mine, i just screwed it up tentatively.

I admit i am stronger than anything, but i hate to suffer from setback, this is a big blow i won't take and afraid to lose.
Therefore, i guess i haven't been tearing and weeping for many years. Even when my dad said the most nasty words to me, i feel so numb. I like to act tough in front of people, i don't wish to let people see the utmost weakling side in me.

This is bad, so bad,and bad......

Been so exhausted ever since yesterday, went to work restlessly.
This weekend probably skip partying, chill-out lounges, and all the night activities and just activate myself to have a good sleep over my own pad.
Anyway, i realised i tend to make a remarkable curt blunders over things and i am so sorry about it. Because i just speak the way i like, think the way i want it to be. Therefore, come to the term of it, not many people can accept me for who i am.
Seriously, i can't sleep properly, eat nicely, think wisely. All i wanted to do was to rest my brains and simply do nothing about it. Sadly, i can't, because i have too many things which constraint my mind. It actually call the mind-blowing session.

Now having a mild headache, and heartache. Why do i hurt so much when people are making merry around their enjoyable life. They do not know when the person having an insomnia. It's just been crushing,crushing,crushing.

"Old picture"

Mom, i thanked you being there for me ups and downs.
Although we always bicker over the trivial matters, and you will tolerate all my impulsive and temperamental attitudes.
You know I'm nothing without your support, when the whole world came crashing down on me, you will my wonder woman or saviour.
I used to let god takes the wheel, but now it seems that you are circulating around my problems, providing me your advices and consoles though you know i am stubborn.
Sorry, i may let you down occasionally and play a wild-child role, but in my heart, you're the best gift from god.
I'd know i can't bring the best out of everything, but i will try to play the best roles of a daughter to you, a best friend, a confidante upon your hearings.

p.s Everyday is a mother's day, with a leap of faith.

Seemingly, we were foolish.
We were both solely wrong to go ahead the eagerly trap.
I'm immensely walking through this lonely path, why did you just dump me here, alone?
I'd wonder, ponder over and over again.
Never mind, we were just playing mind games, just as it seems.
Just that i call it a gimmick, or we bringing it to the next level, it's game over.
We will have to see...

We were once young and mighty,
with love and bravery,
and with arms and armours,
until one day, we found out that we were losers and knight less.

Caught drag me to hell, stupid flick yet a funny one.
Maybe it was due to the sound effects.
Grabbed dinner, smoke a few puff of cancer stick, snooped around the malls before movie, and home sweet home.
Life really sucks when you have no aims, no goals, no desires.
Initially, my independent plans was get a good-stable job, get a car before 23, move out of my crib, earn a stable income, provide my own lodging, provide monthly allowances for parents.
Till then, or rather i have to wait, maybe in the future.

I hate you, the feelings so dangerous.
Maybe i can't get you over, since the past years you been haunting me.
You made me afraid of passing over those hurdles, you made me bleeding through the blunder knife.
Why didn't you just use a trigger and shot me down.
Maybe i really hate you for those things you have done, although i'm strong-minded.
You're not on purpose, but intentionally.

P.s Bark off, you dog

Yesterday was awesomely enjoyment. Went to dbl o with dap and meet up with brandon and company for their sailor "POP".
I swear i was fucking dope high and tipsy with the amount of liquor in me and had a terrible hangover since yesterday.
Anyway, on random note, looking forward to Thailand trips, so far yet so close.
Night earthlings, xoxo, s

Tomorrow's another day, assignment handover.

Fuck la, ccb,knn
Appear that we can blog about vulgarities.
Relief, relief,relief.........

I'm so gonna care less about the relation between everyone, and you.
The moment i start to care more is spending devotion towards my family and myself, of course.
Human instincts..human instincts...

Seriously, with an unknowingly reason, i feel the sudden of anger.
I'd just come to a term that i'm fucking upset, fucking strain.
It seem that the world came by crashing on me.

Today's a boring shit Monday. Monday blues, Monday aching, Monday heartaches, Monday's hunger, Monday's disasters.

Finished our lesson at 1130 and went ahead to parkway parade, accompanied by one of the core four bitches, S to get the contact lenses and then we snooped around the shopping malls for a couple of hours before heading home. I'm thrilled because i finally managed to buy the super-magnificent lip gloss.

On random note, i'm feeling really tired,tired,tired and also restless.

Night earthlings! xoxo, s

Today's a sunday and it is raining heavily. The thought of lazing around at home suits the weather.
I should stay at home today, rent some dvds and cut some slacks.
It would be nice.

"It's better to be loved than never to have love at all."

Boring shit

Tonight, i still have trouble sleeping, something must be wrong with me.
So i got my nail painted, binge eating, have sex with my computer.
Finally i get to see my bff after whole weeks of cooping herself at home, so we went to chill at acid bar, our usual hangout with ashley and her boyfriend, tim. But it turned out awkward as i expected. Again, it was sex-citing, because i get to make love with my stout of beers.
Anyway, it was a boring shit to hang out in singapore, need a short getaway soon once i save up the money.
Still, on random note, lacking of chemistry sabotage a relationship or when u're seeing someone.
Night earthlings!

xo, s