Everytime

Everytime i can't you out of my mind, you're like a thirst of blood.
Everytime i am bothered about something which gets on my nerve, you're like a drug to me.
Everytime i feel so lonely and helplessly strain, you will be there for me.
Everytime i want you out of my life forever, you'll be purring over and over again on my ears.
You're like a friends in need and a foe in trouble.
For once, i want you exile all the way out of my mess up life, but i couldn't.
Because you're becoming part of my daily live and everything means to me than a million cute guys out there.

pray you hard

It was a horrible day for me! I reached school not as punctual as usual this morning because i couldn't find my handphone and wallet. Then, i wasn't able to mark my attendance because the horrendous lecturer T didn't allowed me to sign on the attendance file and declared that i didn't turn up for his lesson. Fine, he screwed me up in front of everyone else claiming on that i kept on talking away throughout his lesson. He's such a scrooge and i am going to file a complaint against him. I don't care if he going to lose his rice-bowl or out of the school for good, but i am going to get into the bottom in it. Afterwhich, we skipped business law module and trained ourselves down to paya lebar, tai sing ave which has a charles and keith warehouse whereby they held 70% of all item which is soooo dirt cheap. But, i didn't managed to get anything from there either there's no sizes and the design are not appealing to my eyes.
On random, i am so fucking depressed and upset about the messy state the political problems bangkok had created. Now millions of foreigners are stuck there and all flights are cancelled. My auntie and godma were stucked there and they couldn't board the flight back to singapore. They are all stuck there. I'd really pray for their safety because i can't seem to sleep or eat well upon knowing the bad news it broadcast almost daily.
Take care earthlings-xoxo

so you know why i am wandering here

Didn't attend class today, because i overslept and stomach seem unwell due to overeating the wrong food. I don't well, seem so tired everyday even when i'm working today. I've been yawning and dozing non-stop ever since the start of the day. Assignment is a total killer because i can't resource for any good information and details regarding the projects and the deadline is nearing.
I really detest china people, especially the china hostess and also staying in singapore. There's one of my colleague whom really pissed me off totally. She put on airs like nobody business, seriously. You are working in singapore environment and you don't have to show me your capabilities, everyone have eyes to see.
Today, i didn't ate much also because thought of heading down to geyland street there's one renown stall selling tau heuy, making me craving for it. Earlier, i just had the sudden urge and i don't know why.
Basically, i have nothing to do so watched re-run of gossip girls and the simple life. Perhaps, cook a noodles for my empty stomach. School tomorrow and i have to wake up punctually, but i don't seem give a fuck about it really.
I'm sooooo laid-back. xoxo

when times like this

I'm aching and cramping all over, sounded like i'm suffering from old grandma illness. I can't stand the coldness in my air-conditioned room. It's an unbearable pain and suffering which i wish to rid of immediately. Oh well, the daily routine is getting bored and i have school on saturday, also business law module. Saturday suppose to be a weekend and an act of liberty and freedom from school, yet we have to attend classes and also seeing the fucking lecturer. His classes makes me build castle in the air, whining and grinning, staring at the notes blankly, dreaming of the hot dudes on the beach, pining and having the thought of creating havoc, using the chance to burn houses down, bringing alcohol beverages to class instead of listening to his boring laws.
I will take it he's singing lullaby whom put me to sleep, and i will sing bah-bah black sheeps and counting sheeps to keep me asleep.
There's no left over dish and i'm feeling fucken famished at this late night auspicious hour and so lazy to walk to the nearest 7-11 store to grab a bite. I can even eat a whole garbage of leftover foods now, even though it's stale or stink, like i care much about growing worms on my stomach.
Moreover, i am feeling so sick and today is like a shit. Tuning in to some old school music seem to disgest my wander mind, so reminise those old preppy music which turn me on effectively. Still, i feel so restless because i don't have a peaceful of mind and body aching like fuck. Maybe my monthly auntie paying a visit to me soon. Pleasssseeeee, not so soon because i hate you for nagging for seven days because i can't endure any of your noise. I need silent and you're like siren that seem to be alarming me every month of the week. I just can't endure, totally.
On the other hand, economy is having a high fluctuation, money is draining dry, higher possibility of retrenchment. So it's a bad times everyone. It's mean i can't slurge money like water-tap, save some penny for myself, maybe buy cheapskate clothes, eat cup-noodles everyday. Learn how to suffer during the oldies 60s'. How cool it can be?
Anticipating for xmas, exchanging gifts and spraying each other like snowflakes ball. Anxious yet hatred because exam is the day after celebration and really dampen my spirit and mood.
Now i am tired, heading to bed now.

Take care people out there, xo

Tomorrow is another day

I am so exhausted, so tired that i dozed off on my way home, barely opened my droopy eyes during my alight of the next stop. I could hardly eat, or drink properly. Although i look lethargic, but i have no reason to fell asleep in my cozy sack. A stash of alcohols and cigs won't help much in keeping me to stay awake. The freaking assignments is definately a holy crap, i swear fuck! It has to be done by 3rd december which mark mission impossible because there is so many effing research work to be done for your information. I am so stressed and could hardly breathe in this misty cool air.
School's a total shits and bitch you could hardly recognise any good policies and rules in them.
So today i went shopping with bff D, and she kinda lost her bebe card holder wallet which seem valuable to her. Fuck those taxi-cabbers, please return her belonging and i swear you will be curse by me for gazillion times or crash by other vehicles. Now, i know i have been swearing too much lately, and nothing comes true but don't care. I swear for a good reason. I need a good sleep now, my body is wearing me out and tearing me apart.
Always love you, xo-S

Now i had a quality time spent with mom this afternoon, a fufilling one and also stocking up my make-up kits as it is an essential needs for girls and also ankle boots which i am unsure i will be wearing it ; it's cost a hell bomb i swear fuck! Then, i went for a movie this evening, with my long-lost friend, so so miss him and we bitch alot of course.On random note, sorry bff little j, i know you're out of love lately and don't lose hope in life you have us for comfort, a shoulder to cry on. You are way better than all the million cute guys out there, don't cry over a spilt milk or a bitch because he ain't worth it and he's a hoe for sure. Don't you guys hurt us because i am gonna hurt your back thousand times more than others, i swear! Always love you- S

wars not ended, never have never will

I am utterly pissed with the two hoes in my household. They are fucking driving me crazy. Don't you know what it mean by cutting ties since you spilled all my secrets and you have the effing guts to take my belongings, especially mp3. You have the mothafucking shit to delete over 400 songs from my mp3 folders, and do you know i am so angered by the fact you this fucking bitch, who stayed over my house over half a year and you do not have some sense of respect. I do not care who the mothafucking shit who took my belonging, at least have some responsibility to put it back to the exact corner of my belonging. Go get yourself fed you bitch, if you have the penny please kindly move out and also to you, because is you who disown me as your sister, so do you i give a shit about recogonising you as brother. Go think twice dude, i don't even give an effing fuck whether we gonna start the cold blood war, but it's not going to end soon, or later. Go earn you money and stop crying like a bitch for some penny, because you are so lowly penniless that i do not even care.
I am not worried whether you gonna read my blog or what, but rather, i am elated you're actually reading it and realising what the fucking screwing things you've done.

i'm am not going to worry whether i am going to be left on shell in the future, because i can discard you like a stick of cig as easy as it comes.

the hell of life

I didn't turn up for school today, partly due to oversleeping and the lecturer a total bitch. I simply can't stand his obnoxious jokes which he think is hilarious for a good laugh, whatever!
So i woke up around 2.30pm and did my normal routine as usual. I had a pool of shit and pees once i got up, i feel proud!
Supposingly to go to city plaza to get get some stuffs from my boss aunt but i was too lazy to train myself down to paya lebar. Whatever, i find myself more and more lazy to do things. I wanted to find myself a good and wearable ankle boots but couldn't find any because i don't mind spending extra penny on a boots. Recently, i have alot of id checks from officers and now i start doubting about my age and look. Do i look younger than my actual age? This is so frustrating, but don't care.
Anyway, i will reporting to school tomorrow and for sure, i'd definately will be late than the usual early-comers because i don't give an effing shits.
It's because i can't wake up and okay, i will dress up preppily and sloppily but slippers are banned, so how?

Night earthlings.

shit do happen

I think i have weekday blues and don't know why. Something seem bothering me and i feel bottled up with unknown feelings. Anyone tell me the reason? I don't feel so good about myself and the others around me. I must be darn sick and i realised that.
Now i realised I'm a huge psycho because i love to pick up weird creatures like cockroaches and maybe i should eat them, i feel alive.
WHAT THE SSHIT!!!???

Pissers to me

I am typing this in an unearthly hour despite the fact that many are sleeping like a log now. Now, i resent the fact that our school changed their rules and regulation. They even raided me for my sloppy slippers which i see no wrong in wearing that. Even the lecturers are getting stricters and usually, i'm a late-comer and therefore, i can't accept the fact of coming to school punctually and won't be having any self-proclaimed holidays. Why? what's with their policies and why they have to change that? I'm getting out of hand here and for sure, i am getting so fed up with the whole procedures.
For unknown reason, i felt so deprived over the lecturers for the new modules. They are the effing-pissers to me, like seriously.
Don't care, now i felt like a plank of wood staring on the laptop screen and four walls behind, my brain went dead.

slut, fuck off

I don't care whether i am being judged or being judgemental of myself, i convinced myself i done nothing wrong. Have you ever got the cheek to deny the fact what your daughter had done being your back when you can have blanket covered. Do you know the actual facts that how many guys your daughter fuck with, smoke weeds, clubs and do haughty things whereby you left with no clues. I don't give an effing fuck whether you are my aunt or what. Call yourself a catholic whereby you have no sense of belonging and love to judge people by its book cover and claim yourself a charity saver. Please for godsake, you are none of the above i am proud of. You should handle your own children before you start critisizing me and my whole family. Not because i am proud of myself, but i can say i have self conscience on my own acts.
Your daughter or son didn't even get a degree of honour in prestigious universities and you dare have the slut cheek all the craps. I rock the world, not you rock mine. Fuck off, you cheesy slut because you have the humongous size and i'm totally disgusted by your behaviour.

You know you love me,xoxo

Now i don't know the feel the joyness or sadness, but my bffs which is also my bestest friend on earth had a little confession to me, you know what it meant. I felt a little uneasy and close to no affection. I'm still in a shocking state in fact because for my case, i do not know how to deal with this matter. Of course, i do not want to lose him for what i have mentioned earlier. He's my drinking partner, the one i share joy and sorrows, the one i have supper with, etc. This is getting extremely weird and you will see...xoxo

Mentally strained

I need some smokestack, a little desperation for that.
But, one stick is enough for me.
Been feeling rather stress over some personal issues which i don't wish to spell out.
I'm a troubled teen, and i don't seem happier than anyone else out there.
Xoxo

Officially the boredom runs in me

Anyway, i felt extremely lonely with no excruxiating pleasures found in me. Been rotting at home for the past two days and it was super depressing as it seems. I almost felt like i have no one to turn to, no one to speak to, no one to sure my gossips and whatever shit.I feel alive when school kicks in and with busy work schedules, it just keep me occupied. Now actually, i am typing this in the toilet doing some friendly-business. I know it may sound gross but i don't give an effing shit out of it.I desperately need a retail-therapy and luckily, i've gone to get my hair fixed and trimmed but my brows need a trim badly, maybe tomorrow i will do it. It's disgusting when your brows are badly unshaped, i know the feelings okay?Gotta run, take care!

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